live and learn?

went to see a helpful friend yesterday,it was a meeting i was looking forward to. i needed to get a few things off my chest and my friend was there to listen. i am stressed no matter how i look at things either bills and money get me down or if i take a different route then my living situation stresses me out. my friend was right i have to find the happy medium, if one. my life might always be this way with new obstacles pushing me either to stumble or fall. i enjoyed my visit, i am glad to have someone who listens and can give me ways to change my train of thought. Life is either great or got ya down... where is the happy medium. i just want what anyone wants, to be able to take care of my bills and have no money worries. no stress on "oh damn" i am out of dish soap can i scrape up some change to get it. i wouldn't argue if i was to win big money but being able to take care of the house hold is all that matters to me the most over big money. i guess with the economy being so bad, asking for a comfortable life is asking alot. isn't it sad that we didn't learn from past mistakes to keep our economy from getting so bad. what happened to knowing the ole saying "learn from your mistakes!!"


i am up early today 4:30am my lover is to blame, who wakes up in the mood at 4:30. hey i love him, i could have tried to go back to sleep but 6:30 comes quick, i figured ah just make a pot of coffee and start my day early. i have a great man he is always there for me but his early morning romp sessions can be real early. men cant live with them or without. esp mine he... even though i wouldn't give him up for anyone, and if another teenie bopper comes along and tries to take this man from me i will flip my lid. the last man in my life, mind you it was a 10 year relationship, was ruined by a 18 yr old who knew he was taken. she still became involved with him and ruined our family. do people know what common courtesy is and what family is suppose to mean? hey the 18yr old can have the slime ball they deserve each other i found a real man. i just cant believe i didn't kick her rear in, if i stole a man that i knew was in a committed relationship i would expect my rear to be kicked. she got off lucky i hope she realizes it lol! she is so dumb she prob. doesn't lol!

i have a better life now so i am gonna stop dwelling on that past incident. believe it or not, my life is better now. i just want to be able to live without the stress of money. i already went there so i ain't gonna go there again. i just will wait to see what the future holds. life is.... mysterious, one day it goes horrible then the next week your on a cloud, and if it wasn't for the bad day the cloud would have passed you by. we just have to take things as they come. what i need is to stop and think before i act. i know that's a bad habit i have but just like any habit they are hard to break. i will over come and learn to think before i make major decisions. what i say and do is 2 different things. i gotta break the bad habit.
enough for now..i just wanted to get a few things off my chest. bye bye