not much lately to report, same dull days as before. i should give my self credit though i am hanging in. wow someone is up late, just scared the shit out of me with the sound of someone jumping into the pool! i hope its someone who lives here because its late and dark! freaky .
i haven't been on in a while mostly because nothing has been going on. like tonight so i think its time to call it a day..

CRY BABY

had a bit of a stumble which i think is heading towards a fall. recovery is difficult it seems to be taking days. i wonder if my medicine or the seizure is making me fall. my mother keeps telling me talk too the doctor and let them know "i don't do anything but sleep". the doctor knows this already they prescribe the meds, enough to keep a elephant from moving!! i have been sleeping more then usual could this be a recovery from the 2 days of seizures. i am damned if i do and damned if i don't, take the meds and be a zombie, don't take them and seize all day. zombie is the way and it is less painful. what kind of life is this for someone to live.
why do people take prescription drugs that they aren't prescribed? i have to and hate it i would be more then happy to switch health problems so they could get the meds prescribed. i want to be drug free. weight gain, tiredness, dizziness i don't want the issues associated.
i am falling like a baby feeling sorry for myself when there are others with worse problems staying strong and fighting the fight. boo whoo on me"shame"!!

small bit of beauty

PEACEFUL FOR EVERYONE

went fishing and didn't catch anything. didn't mind much since the view and the weather were peaceful and calming. our good deed for the day was feeding life lower then us on the food chain.
i have a friend going thru a hard time, the kind of hard time i remember from about 1and 1/2YR. i am afraid she is falling into that deep dark hole i fell into. i am lending my ear just like a friend did for me. during these hard times a friend and a few laughs are soothing. nice person who deserves my help. i really need to do something nice for my friend who stood there and walked by my side, i understand what i put her thru and she stayed true to me, friends i want on my side. wow blog went deep.... fishing to intense hardship.

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO MOTHERS EVERYWHERE!!

A FLORIDA GIRL

was inspired, the feeling soon vanished. aah i thought about my inspiration and figured out it wasn't something that truly made me want to go there. stop and think before you act, i have been trying to accomplish this for some time now. the start of the new me, okay going too far. what would be great is if i could learn how to do this and shop. just cause'' its on sale" isn't a good enough reason to put off bills, my thick head!!
the weather has been awesome the last few days, sun shinning, beautiful breeze blowing, humidity low, living in Florida i cant complain. couple of weeks i will be grumpy due to a sticky hot or raining every afternoon.
well not much more to say or bore anyone with...

PEACEFUL EVENING

what a beautiful sunset tonight. its worth the time to stop and look at simple things. if you ever read anything i wrote, you know how i love nature so. wish i lived further from the main part of town so the stars would stand out more. enjoy a natural wonder.

COULD WE REVERT?

Watched a old movie last night OLD YELLER. for those that haven't seen it(if any) you should it is in my opinion a classic.

while watching the movie i realized how lazy people are now a days. the movie was created in 1957 but based on a family in the pioneer days living in a cabin. the youngest child even asked what money was, that's how poor the family is. they hunted their own food and made sure to save up for winter, grew their own crops, drank water i wouldn't even swim in. the oldest boy at the age of 15 did more then adults do now a days. right now everyone is panicked over the economy, losing homes, having hard times, even i am scared. did we become in a sense too spoiled and lazy? maybe we have and we brought this crash on ourselves? i couldn't plow a field, i don't know how. i couldn't kill an animal or clean it and eat it. cooking, milking and making butter myself not getting it from a store. i would starve the first week. what it really comes down to is if we really had to live like that again could we? we are already crying and we have the corner store and electric.