Here i am as i am every morning drinking my coffee and having my smoke. I like to watch the squirrels run around the big oak tree, they really tease my cat. Hey as long as its my cat being teased its funny! Baby my cat gets so excited over these squirrels that one day he ran into the screen SMACK! Funny, like when a person walks into a closed glass door. I have done it, not only does it stun you but it sure embarrasses you... esp if others are around to witness.
Florida is going through a cold snap, yes it does get chilly here, but its nice to sit on my porch
with the cool air its so refreshing compared to the nasty heat and humidity we get in the summer. This is my favorite time of the year. I actually will put on makeup and dress nice for a change during the summer the hair goes up and makeup collects dust unless I want to sweat it off, and I don't want to waste expensive cherished makeup. I'm not one of those woman that are afraid to step outside without her face on. Most days I have my hair up no makeup, dark circles its pretty scary! Doesn't stop me from doing what I want and I realized one day I don't have to please anyone but myself. If my face scares you look away!! When I do get done up hair perfect and face in place its funny to see acquaintance's faces esp if its the first time they see me done up I call it the shock look because they stare and cant believe its me. I am not a supermodel don't get me wrong I am just a average woman but when a average woman goes from scary to hot without warning you get good raves!!
Gee! I smoke alot in the morning but a cig sure goes well with my coffee and I love coffee of all kinds....I wont go there it would take up alot of typing.
I have to cut back but I really don't see it happening you gotta really want to and I am not there yet. My boyfriend smokes too so we would have to do it together and at the moment we aren't doing anything together. My fault I was grumpy and took it out on him. He isn't completely off the hook though. I am up early on a sat while my love is on the couch still asleep, two nights now we haven't shared our bed and for two nights i didn't sleep well for instance me up early ever esp on a sat is not ordinary behavior for me. Stress is also playing a huge part of my behavior, I am trying to just stumble not fall. I fell hard about a year ago and it took me a year to stand back up, I don't have drug problems I am not an addict except of coffee and cigs, I suffer from chronic depression and my lover is my medication I needed. Who would have thought when one man trips you and watches you fall that another man will stand by and help you stand again knowing esp what ailments I deal with. Tim is perfect I love him.We usually are sitting outside with our coffee together talking and enjoying the crisp air and the nature that surrounds us. I am alone today writing instead.