HOLIDAY TEARS!

Christmas time was here, the family get together came and went. i am happy to say its a blessing, the "family failure" has did her time and was as usual just a soul sitting there. why in a family is there clicks, my younger cousins sit together laughing and talking about their commons. the aunts and uncles enjoying theirs. i sit alone, no commons to share with anyone. i think my problem is i need to feel loved by my family, my aunts spend precious time with their children laughing, talking and their mothers actually listen and care. i wish it was like that in my immediate family. i should give up on wanting that, its never gonna happen with me. my sister on the other hand gets what i want, the feeling of love and respect. i should have gotten to be happy on Christmas instead a flow of tears showed up, and i am not talking the happy kind.